Today I wrote my own Eulogy

Today I wrote my own Eulogy and for the first time in a long time, I was honest with myself about the things I didn't like in case of my untimely demise. First I went with a poetry groove, closer to a still I rise but I was unimpressed with the results. So I thought I would just put together a bunch of sentences in case of my untimely demise. Today I wrote my Eulogy because somehow I think I have been misunderstood for 24 years if that's possible. So I wrote a list of things I hate, so just in case people show up and say I liked these things, you know they weren't in my inner circle. Today I wrote my eulogy and I realized......

A) I hate when people tell me "I better" or "I need to" even when they are joking, I won't do it just because I don't take orders well

B) I can't take tears, I suppose because I don't remember the last time I cried, I don't know how to respond to it. Am I suppose to catch the persons tears, I don't get it. I figure, suck it up and move on.

C) FAT PEOPLE. Everyone knows I'm a phatophobic but I just don't get how someone would want to live like that

D) Whining voices! You know when people talk in a baby voice, I find that to be so patronizing because you have to make a conscious decision to change your voice into that non-sense.

E) Bad Parents....speaks for itself.

F) The idea of "Best Friend" because the idea itself means you must have worse friends, I will delve into that topic in another blog.

G) The concept of "Falling" in love because by definition it would suggest a mistake, strictly by the idea of Falling, again in another blog

H) Crowders! You know those people that never allow you to breathe. I've have found that people that haven't given me space in my past, I usually just created it. You know kind of like a post player in the NBA.

I) Dirty shoes.....speaks for itself

J) One sided friendships, where one friend does everything, puts in everything and as a result losses everything

K) People that never figure out themselves. I just feel like I know too many people who pinpoint one person in their lives and try to mirror everything they do. The problem with that concept is you only get to see whats in the mirror and never get to see whats in you. Yep that's another blog.

L) People that define themselves by a city, a number, an organization, a neighborhood. It is always OK just represent where you are from but to not understand yourself outside of those perimeters is suicidal.

M) I stop on "M" for a reason which I will explain sooner than later but in case my of my untimely demise there is a bunch of notes from bill collectors under my bed that I am currently avoiding. I know, it seems like a lot to digest but I am quite sure its SIMPLE ENOUGH

The Bird loves the Fish

         Watching a video this weekend I heard the speaker say something that got me to thinking. He said a bird and a fish can fall in love but where would they live? He was mainly concentrating on ones ability or inability to sacrifice but it got me to thinking about the reasons for change. That change is often viewed as an immediate move mentally but more often physically. Yet  I see the word change often being used as a way to escape from ones current situation both mentally and physically. Kind of like that feeling you get when someone ask you a question you don't want to answer or simply can't. There is that immediate need to get up and walk away. Some people may see you as a coward when you seek change because in essence you have found the need to walk away instead of answering the question. But would it be better to answer a question you don't have the answer to? To attempt a riddle that you didn't know you had started? Change exist because it is necessary, one might even say mandated.

           Could the fish fall in love with the bird, sure. Could the bird love the fish just the same, of course. Do they need to be in the same element to love or even like each other....Nope. But could they utilize their current station in life to help the other realize its potential...Certainly. There is a natural fear associated with leaving something even while you still love it. After all it does seem natural to walk away and want a change when things get really difficult. Therein it must be natural to stay when things appear easy. Yet the easiest thing to do may just be the most difficult, like walking away while things seem so easy.

             Would you rather walk away a battered, beaten and Sex Scandaled Bret Farve, trying to answer questions he could no longer answer or would you prefer to be the guy who made his job look easy and left people wanting more like a Barry Sanders. If fear causes change, does happiness cause content? Can it be said that a man is more vulnerable when he is happy because he may not be seeking that change that could alter everything around him. The simplest thought of changing everything around you may seem like it will kill you at first but maybe the you that is alive is not living anyway.

            What if the bird that you are is not a soaring Eagle or gawking Owl? What if you are the wobbling Penguin or the slurping Goose and you needed to love that fish in the water enough to get you out of the clouds and where you needed to be because the element you where in had you lost. But I may have never known that if I wouldn't have tried right.

            That may seem complex, but I am quite sure its Simple Enough.

Simple Enough entry 1

Well I believe I will begin this Blog thing. I think I have been selfish enough in holding my thoughts to myself. Some of my blogs will delve into real world events but very few. Most of my blogs will be about life and the way people think. Not in a effort to change anyone but to shed light on the actions of people around us. I don't think we pay enough attention to the pure bliss that life can bring. I will analyze some music from time to time and a few of my favorite people in life. This blog is for no one in particular, simply a deep thoughtful dialogue with myself. They say you can talk to yourself as long as you don't answer. No one ever mentioned typing. Entry 1 complete, next blog will be......well I wont put times on myself for fear I may interrupt the simplest thought to meet a deadline. So I will blog when the next simplest thought arrives.


Yep, I think that is SIMPLE ENOUGH.